DAY 2: I am not an accident

Everything about me was already planned by God. I am His design, He created and moulded me, he put me exactly here and has intended for everything in my life to happen.

Thoughts
Struggling a lot to come to terms with this. I do think I seem to be deliberately struggling against it though. Hmm.

Difficulties
As a person who took very well to Existentialism, I believe that I control the course of my life. The idea that this is not the case frightens me a lot. I do, however, realise that it's not that God dictates everything I do; rather, I am now to have the ..affirmation of God behind all that I do, in that I shall always strive to serve Him in everything I do.

I think it's a good thing, ultimately, because the knowledge - well, belief (at this point for me) - that everything you do was intended by Him makes you want to do good things, and then attribute it to Him.

It still sounds like Warren is assigning the fact that we don't know where we're going to the mysterious doings of God. "Oh don't worry I know all these things in your life appear to be random coincidences but really, there's actually a reason for it all and it's because of God."

Fark. It's not so much that I'm struggling with my faith in God, but just with what this author is saying to me. I guess I just need to keep reading! I will never give up, that's for sure.

I'm also disappointed in my level of articulation today, but it's 3 in the morning and I'm tiirrreedd. @__@" STUPID JESS. FINISH YOUR ASSIGNMENTS EARLIER THE FUQ IS WRONG WITH YOU.