BREAKFAST
STANDARD

LUNCH
Little Red Box of smoked salmon salad

Walked around my uni 'campus' trying to find my classroom w t f.
Got a body massage!!! Shoulders in fucking pain + now my legs are too. More so than before LOL

SNACK
Le grapes. Maybe.. 10ish?

DINNER
I make the yummiest fucking basa fillet ever, too bad I haven't mastered presentation yet! Still, not a bad effort Jess ^_~
Oh right, + salad on the side + 3/4 a fist of rice, some duck and a bit of pork /__\

DESSERT
STANDARD FRUIT AND YOGHURT FARRRK

SNACK (omg.)
Halfish a fist of rice? + Daddy stir-fried some beef that he really wanted me to try so I ate some of that and it was really yummy! (Don't worry very very clean!!!)

dargh

Totally lost my motivation to exercise FUCKKKKKKKK ALRIGHT I'M GOING TO JUST RIP SOME SHIT UP NOW BECAUSE IT'S DARK OUTSIDE AND I DON'T LIKE RUNNING IN THE DARK ANYMORE /__\

BREAKFAST/LUNCH/FIRST MEAL OF THE DAY AT 2PM LOL

Had to fry the egg because I poured too much olive oil again D:

SNACK
This chick asked me to edit a blogskin for her, and I was so focused on it so it took me a good two hours or so of just sitting on my seat. Didn't really feel hungry for ages! THEREFORE I just went to dice up a cucumber and eat that as a snack (:
+ 2 pieces of duck

M300s. I think my breaks were too long (I had to take breaks in between the actual 10 reps during burpees and squat thrusts because my thighs were shaking and I had to sit down wtf). Still took like 40 mins tho shitson

Had a 1/2 a scoop of protein shake immediately after that. Are you meant to put water first or the powder because mine got a little clumpy ?_? LOL

DINNER
WE SHALL SEE

SNACK
I want blueberries + yoghurt + cut up grapes again!!!! It's so, so, so good.. The only thing that would make it better were if the yoghurt was frozen *drools

We both have to work hard >.<"!!! I just have to do some work full stop lmao

This is what actually went down

Get up at 11:30AM. MORNING WORKOUT Trollolol got out of bed at 12:50AM. Had a single grape. Then brushed my teeth and got dressed and went driving.

BREAKFAST
+ Apple
+ T2 Tea
+ Bread

DRIVING 1-2

LUNCH?
2 - 2:30 // Smoked Salmon salad fuck yeahhh

+ 2 little pieces of chicken
PORTIONS WERE WATCHED :)

UNI

UNI SNACK
Grapes/almonds/rice cakes
+ BRING GREEN TEA AND DRINK THAT IF YOU GET HUNGRY.
Green tea was brought and drunk :)

DINNER
6 or 6:307 - 7:30 // Smoookkeeed Salmon, spinach&rocket + tomato + cucumber salad what the fuck is uuupp

Portions were watched :)

SNACK
7:30 or 8 // Have a yoghurt w/ blueberries if you must (oh I did. With like 6 grapes too)

NO EATING AFTER THAT. WATER ONLY

BEDTIME YOGA

>:(

Going to outline everything imma eat tomorrow and be super super strict because I ate so much today wtf >:(

Get up at 11:30AM. MORNING WORKOUT

BREAKFAST
+ Apple
+ T2 Tea
+ Bread

DRIVING 1-2

LUNCH?
2 - 2:30 // Salmon, Asian greens. Half a fist of rice.
WATCH YOUR PORTIONS.

UNI

UNI SNACK
Grapes/almonds/rice cakes
+ BRING GREEN TEA AND DRINK THAT IF YOU GET HUNGRY.

DINNER
6 or 6:30 // Smoookkeeed Salmon, spinach&rocket + tomato + cucumber salad what the fuck is uuupp
WATCH YOUR PORTIONS

SNACK
7:30 or 8 // Have a yoghurt w/ blueberries if you must

NO EATING AFTER THAT. WATER ONLY

BEDTIME YOGA

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Day 3: What drives my life?

Finally, a chapter I agree on. I do agree that life is meaningless if we don't know what we are living for. God seems to be the reasonable solution.

Difficulties
I think the whole "God will ask you 2 questions to pass a test" thing is a bit bogus. Like I said, what on earth happens to the 2-day-year-old children who are murdered days after they are born!? Where on earth do they go?

Still, though. I am definitely warming up to the idea that life without a purpose is meaningless. I spoke to God quite a few times today, I think. This book really is bringing Him closer to me as I tentatively explore and prod him for answers to my (probably ridiculous) questions.

the sun goes down

the stars come out
and all that counts
is here and now
my universe
will never be the same
I'm glad you came,
I'm glad you came

(Stuck in my head!)

Less than 5 hours sleep today, which is why my appetite was so big today!

BREAKFAST
Toast, apple, tea

SNACK
A tiny bit of smoked salmon + salad. Tasted crap. Lmao

LUNCH
Chicken, brown rice, Asian greens (mostly broccoli), a few pieces of pork! D:

SNACK
Green tteeeeeaaa, some cucumber stix, a piece of chicken breast, one cob of corn! ♥

ZUMBA

SNACK
Tried protein shake, had left over cucumber + corn + some smoked salmon. Why. Does. It. Feel. Like. I've. Eaten. So. Much. Today!!?!?!? :(. Have a feeling the scales will be 55 again tomorrow.. Sigh. This is gonna be a long road.

I also got a HD for the rest of my Assessment 2 in one of my subjects :) yay, but I'm really peculiarly stressed about everything else now for some reason......

DAY 2: I am not an accident

Everything about me was already planned by God. I am His design, He created and moulded me, he put me exactly here and has intended for everything in my life to happen.

Thoughts
Struggling a lot to come to terms with this. I do think I seem to be deliberately struggling against it though. Hmm.

Difficulties
As a person who took very well to Existentialism, I believe that I control the course of my life. The idea that this is not the case frightens me a lot. I do, however, realise that it's not that God dictates everything I do; rather, I am now to have the ..affirmation of God behind all that I do, in that I shall always strive to serve Him in everything I do.

I think it's a good thing, ultimately, because the knowledge - well, belief (at this point for me) - that everything you do was intended by Him makes you want to do good things, and then attribute it to Him.

It still sounds like Warren is assigning the fact that we don't know where we're going to the mysterious doings of God. "Oh don't worry I know all these things in your life appear to be random coincidences but really, there's actually a reason for it all and it's because of God."

Fark. It's not so much that I'm struggling with my faith in God, but just with what this author is saying to me. I guess I just need to keep reading! I will never give up, that's for sure.

I'm also disappointed in my level of articulation today, but it's 3 in the morning and I'm tiirrreedd. @__@" STUPID JESS. FINISH YOUR ASSIGNMENTS EARLIER THE FUQ IS WRONG WITH YOU.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK my turn

Some of my favourite bodybuilding pictures

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That scream

Arnold's unique pose he derived from ballet lessons?

This is what i want to achieve