I'm at a payphone

Trying to call home,
All of my change I spent on you

LUNCH(??)
..Er, breakfast

DINNER
You knew what I 8

DESSERT
Standard :)

Not eating much lately..

I LOVE PAYPHONE ARGH IT'S BEEN STUCK IN MY HEAD ALL DAYYYYY. Listening to it right now woo

Notes:
Catch up on 2 chapters of the book
Download Light Up The Sky - the Afters! SAH GOOD. ^.^

JESSICA NEEDS NEW MUSIC

I shit. You. Not.
That is genuinely what I would look like if I were skinny, the proportions are all the same to mine..! (Shorter legs, longer torso - Qin has this also)

Anyways, had a pretty bad(??) food day today, barely ate wtf. Oh well I ate too much yesterday anyway so it's just as well right? ^^

Brunch
Plain!toast, an apple, some chicken

Snack
Tea rofl

Dinner

CAN I GET A FUCK YEAH

Dessert
Standard :) With some pomengranate seeds thrown in .. It made it all berry-coloured but wasn't that pleasant, I had to keep spitting out the seeds.. Even though they're good for me LOL

P.S. It's hilarious how you never finish the last few meal entries AHAHA ♥

STUDY STUDY STUDY

Study today, lift tomorrow!

Meal 1
Tomato, ham, cheese sandwich + 2 eggs + green tea

Meal 2
Steak, sweet potato + yoghurt with grapes

Meal 3

Meal 4

Meal 5

hehe

I am to Belle what you are to me now! She wants to lose 2kgs in 2 weeks. I'm making her run! And have a food diary! Hehehe

Brunch
Toast + Philadelphia (I have to stop..), half an apple, some mouthfuls of mostly white rice (because dad doesn't like converting straight off to brown so mum chucked some brown in with the white) + some beef

Snack
FUCKING TICTACSSSSSSSS

Lunch
Small smoked trout salad, some pork (today was not a good day for food choices.), a cucumber, 4 cherry tomatos, a little more smoked trout

Halfway HIIT. Not very good.. Started feeling dizzy after the fifth sprint. Will try again :)))

Dinner
A little more than 1/2 a bowl of brown rice, stirfry capsicum&cucumber + chicken tenderloin (:

Snack
New yoghurt I bought. Claimed to taste like sticky date. Um no.

Late night snack
Some almonds, a stick of celery. WEIRDLY HUNGRY. STILL AM HUNGRY. Drinking cold green tea instead.

I THINK I SHALL RETIRE TO BED NOW. GOODNIGHT ♥

2:37 AM
Just figured out what my eating times would be for me when I sleep in til 12:30PM. Just thought I'd try tell when I should eat / stop eating, because I don't want my metabolism to slow down when I unintentionally starve myself at night!

12:30PM - 2:30AM DAY

1230 BREAKFAST
2:30 Snack
4:30 LUNCH
7:00 Snack
9:30 DINNER
(15-30 mins later?) Dessert
11:30 Possible snack if I want it

All stars

That is all.

Just kidding:

Rest day

Meal 1

Mung bean porridge + tuna

Meal 2

Chicken wrap + apple

Meal 3

Meal 4

Meal 5

Day 6&7

But first, food:

LUNCH
Standard breakfast, but toast with some philadelphia

SECOND LUNCH
A small smoked trout salad

Dindin
Crumbed fish w/ side salad fucking yum but too much oil methinks

Dessert
Standard

??
Feeling a tiny bit peckish so picked on a few pieces of clean stirfry beef (again, dad loves it - he cooks it) + had one spoonful of rice that was like 90% white haha

Day 6
WHAT IS HEAVEN/LIFE AFTER DEATH I DONT GET THIS :( HOW DO I LIVE FOR A LIFE I DONT ACTUALLY KNOW (FOR SURE) EXISTS? I know God exists for me but.. A LIFE in eternity? I don't understand >.<"

Day 7
It's all about Him. I knew this already, so it wasn't really a shock; He wants us to glorify Him and His name, of course. I'm starting to predict that our purpose in life/book is to glorify God!?
I also like how the author wrote that God is happiest when we use our gifts to serve Him and each other. See, we were brought onto this earth to be useful!! A little contradictory to chapter 6, isn't it? This is why I need dialogue. I need conversation, I need answers.

I hope He will lead me to know them soon. ♥

Day 5: Seeing Life from God's View

Didn't read this last night because it was late so I'll read two chapters today!

Thoughts
Liking this book more and more. I find it particularly amazing how God has actually managed to align what I'm studying with what this chapter says. It's so fascinating, like God has written me in a book and these coincidences are just part of the plot for me - which is true, isn't it?
Life on Earth is a Test. God will test me by "major changes, delayed promises, impossible problems, unanswered prayers, undeserved criticism and even senseless tragedies." Sometimes he will pull away from me to 'see what is really in my heart'.
It makes me feel all the more thankful and grateful for Willow's survival. I know that as time goes by it just becomes a fact of life, but the fact that he is still here with us is truly a miracle. Tonight I pray thanks to Him for that, because I know if (God forbid. Literally) Willow had actually passed away, all our lives would be so different.
Life on Earth is a Trust. The more I have, the more He will demand from me; the more he entrusts in me, the more he will ask. Nothing I have is truly mine; it is only something I get to briefly enjoy and then pass away.

I like this idea, somehow, because it aligns with my previously inchoate thoughts that our time on Earth really is so brief. It makes me feel more secure somehow to know/be told that this is His; I want to take even better care of the Earth now!

Difficulties
I don't think I like the way Warren has represented Eternity. It's all very vague (but then again I suppose it has to be). I think I just don't like the idea of having to go to Hell if I don't pass God's final 'Judgement Test'. Humm.